Warning #1: This is the chatty, “welcome to my life” version of my weight loss story. If you are pressed for time (or donāt care about all the details - it wonāt hurt my feelings) you can check out the Cliffās Note version here: Jacquiās Weight Loss Story
Or scroll to the bottom for all my best tips.
Or, you can hear me tell my story. I was interviewed on the Tips of the Scale podcast. You can listen HERE.
Warning #2: This is about the only time Iāll share lots of pictures of myself. I HATE having my photo taken. So if you want embarrassing pics of me, nowās the time to look.
If you want all the gory details, sit back, grab some air-popped popcorn, and read on.
Who the heck am I and why should you care?
Iām Jacqui, and itās nice to meet you! I live in Kansas City and am married with three sons. I love playing guitar, listening to music, reading about health & nutrition. I also enjoy a good trashy novel. Iām a runner when my knees cooperate and Iāve run over 20 half marathons, one full marathon, and lots of 5 and 10kās.
Iām also a former fattie, and thatās probably why youāre reading this.
Why should you care? Iām no one special. Iām just someone who has stuffed her problems down with food for too many years. Iām just a person who put others first and forgot to take care of herself. Iām someone who likes to eat. A lot. Iām also a binge eater so if youāve ever dove headfirst into a half gallon of ice cream and finished it off in one sitting, I can relate. Iāve been normal weight, Iāve been chubby and Iāve been downright fat. You saw the picture above.
But despite all my many flaws, I decided seven years ago that I was done being fat.
I had to take action for my own health and, honestly, for my own sanity. I was tired of letting food control me. I lost a lot of weight (over 85 pounds on a good day, and slightly less than that when Iām struggling) and Iāve kept it off ever since. I donāt have a secret diet or magic formula to share. Sorry. But I do have experience. And, by reading of my many, many failures, perhaps you can avoid the mistakes Iāve made.
Rather than just share my story (which is probably boring without a car chase, space aliens or zombies), I promise to include my snippets of wisdom. People ask me all the time how I lost weight and how they can too. If you read this, you will know EVERYTHING. I promise I have no other goodies to share š
Jacquiās Tip: There is no secret to weight loss. It begins with your decision to become fit. Each and every choice you make will either lead you closer to your goal, or farther away from it. The key is to NEVER GIVE UP.
First I blamed society.
I started dieting as a teen, even though I wasnāt overweight. I was a normal teenage girl, but I wasnāt tiny like actresses or the models in my Cosmo magazine. I also wasnāt 5ā10, but thatās beside the point. If I were thinner maybe Iād magically become more outgoing. Maybe Iād be more popular with the cute boys at school. Heck, maybe Iād have a higher GPA. So, for all the wrong reasons, I began a lifetime of dieting.
Then I blamed my kids.
After a few years of almost constant dieting, child #1 came along. I gained a whopping 60 pounds during that pregnancy. And much to my dismay, the weight did not disappear once I gave birth. I distinctly remember shopping for a whole new wardrobe in a size 14 when it was time to return to work six weeks later.
So I did what I had done for years - I started another diet.
And the weight came off. Temporarily. Because the endless, vicious cycle of yo yo dieting began in earnest.
Maybe THIS is the diet that will work!
I literally tried every diet known to man, starting with Ayds diet candy as a teenager, the cabbage soup diet, Weight Watcherās, the pilotās diet, Atkins, Southbeach, Fit for Life, paleo, low fat, low carb, low calorie. I have a diet book collection that rivals that of a library.
But with each new diet I lost less weight. And when I would slip into old habits or start binge eating, I gained everything back, plus interest. When I was stressed I turned to food. When I was happy I ate to celebrate. Then the guilt would start and Iād begin a new diet. Isnāt that what society tells us to do? Isnāt there a diet on the cover of every womanās magazine?
Despite being on a diet almost constantly, I steadily got heavier.
I not only hated dieting, I hated me.
Fast forward to the summer of 2007. I had been hovering in the 180ās for about two years. By the fall of 2007 I began āzombie eatingā ā I just could not control myself around food. I was binging constantly and could not stop myself. This was one of the most frightening experiences I have ever had - the total loss of control around food. Daily I prayed, made new resolutions, but could not get the eating under control. Over the fall 2007/winter 2008 time period I gained weight steadily until I reached a high of 204 pounds.
I say 204 pounds because that was the number I saw on the scale at one point. Iām 5ā5″ and have a small frame. Obviously I was avoiding the scale since it was incredibly uncomfortable to face the fact that I was fat. Looking at pictures, Iāll bet I weighed more than 204, but thatās the number I use for reference. I was wearing a size 18/20 on a good day, and a size 22 on a chubby day.
It wasnāt just the number on the scale that I despised. I hated my life.
I was tired of being the fat mom. I wouldnāt take my kids to the pool because I didnāt want to be seen in a swim suit. I skipped my husbandās office parties because I didnāt want to be judged. I missed out on a lot of life because I was embarrassed by my weight.
And the real tragedy? The judgment and hatred and disgust came from within ME.
No one ever said anything to my face. Well, there was the time the neighbor child across the street called me fat, but I was probably wearing a size 6 at the time so that doesnāt count. People treat you differently when youāre fat. They make assumptions that you eat like a pig and are lazy. But it doesnāt matter what people think.
The messages you tell yourself are whatās important.
And the self-talk in my head was vicious. I hated myself and was disgusted with what I saw in the mirror.
Jacquiās Tip: Please take a minute to think about the messages you are giving yourself. Often we are unaware of the thoughts that pass through our mind throughout the day. But this weight loss battle begins in your head. Learn to speak to yourself as you would to a cherished friend. When a negative thought crosses your mind, counter it with a loving message.
I hit rock bottom… and discovered my big WHY.
In June 2008 I went to the doctor for a routine visit and my blood work showed I was pre-diabetic. It shouldnāt have shocked me since I was a poster child for a type II diabetic: overweight, no exercise, crappy diet, etc. My triglycerides were sky high too.
My doctorās visit was a HUGE wake up call. Before this time I knew I was overweight (okay OBESE) but did not have any health consequences. Finally the excess weight had caught up to me. I did some reading about diabetes and what I read scared me to death. I did not want to take the glucophage the doctor prescribed. I did not want to continue down the road to full blown diabetes.
Hitting rock bottom was actually a blessing because I discovered my big WHY.
Your big WHY is your real reason for losing weight. You (or I) can say we want to lose the chub to fit into our skinny jeans, but that is not a reason that will keep you going no matter what when it gets tough. For me, knowing my health was at stake was finally the turning point I needed.
I resolved to do everything in my power to lose weight NOW.
Jacquiās Tip: Do a little soul-searching to find your big WHY. Your WHY is unique to you and it must be compelling to get you through the tough times. Most importantly, write it down.
How I started (finally) losing weight for good.
First I eliminated sugar and flour and slowly the weight started coming off.
And I do mean SLOWLY. I was losing about a pound a week, so that became my goal. Every time in the past I had made grand resolutions and goals I could not achieve them. I decided to give myself a break and strive to lose one pound a week.
The biggest blessing I noticed was that, after the first week or so, I no longer had cravings for junk. Mind you I was not eating totally clean, but for the most part I did not eat processed foods. And while the thought of a cookie or slice of bread sounded good, I had no overwhelming desire to eat it.
I am thoroughly convinced that processed carbs creates a desire for more carbs. When they were cut from my diet I no longer had the scary āzombie eatingā urge. This was the biggest blessing of all.
Jacquiās Tip: While itās nice to have the guidance of a well-balanced nutrition plan (like the PiYo plan), simply eliminating processed foods might be enough of a kickstart to get the scale dropping. No need to overcomplicate things in the beginning.
Get your body moving.
With my eating under control, the next thing to tackle was exercise.
At 200+ pounds I was pitifully out of shape. My knees ached going up and down the steps, and my ankles were weak. I made a real effort to find non-weight-bearing exercise to get myself started.
No gym for me - Iāll work out at home, thank you very much.
I was fat and self-conscious and the last thing I wanted to do was to squeeze into shorts and a tank top and sweat in public. I ruled out classes at the gym immediately. In the past, I had done home exercise videos so thatās where I began.
I first tried yoga and, though I didnāt love yoga, it felt good to be moving. Next, I turned to Pilates videos which I really enjoyed. My body started to get stronger. (If youāre like I was and need to start very gently, PiYo may be a good place to begin.)
I soon realized that my knees and ankles were no longer hurting and I was ready for more strenuous exercise. I added new videos to my workout collection and began walking. Walking eventually turned into running….
Jacquiās Tip: You must move your body. Period. But, make an effort to find an activity you LOVE. It can be something simple like dancing, walking outdoors, biking, swimming. It can be rocking a kickboxing or weight training DVD. Maybe participating in sports. The key is to find your “soulmate workout.”
After one year I was down 57 pounds.
After one year I weighed 147 pounds (down 57 pounds) and wore a size 10. I was THRILLED. In the right clothes I felt good about myself. I wasnāt skinny by any means, but I was not ashamed of how I looked.
My thighs no longer rubbed together when I walked. I could cross my legs with ease ā something that was impossible when I was fat! I had a newfound energy and enthusiasm for life. I didnāt get out of breath walking up the stairs. I actually ENJOYED shopping for clothes.
Best of all, my blood glucose levels and triglycerides were completely normal. And, according to the height/weight charts I was now in the ānormal” category.
Even though I was no longer overweight according to the charts, I had jiggly fat and was 33% body fat. So I set a new goal of 135 pounds.
Jacquiās Tip: Setting a big ‘ol goal like losing 80 pounds is intimidating. I recommend setting mini goals. Losing 5 pounds is doable, right? Once you hit that goal then re-evaluate. Do you need to keep going? If so, set your next goal for another 5 pounds, etc.
At this point the weight loss really slowed down. I was now losing a pound only every two to three weeks.
I plateaued in the 140ās for quite some time. For awhile I decided to stop dieting and try to be happy where I was. But ultimately I refocused and regrouped.
Jacquiās Tip: Most people will plateau at some point. Itās frustrating, yes, but your body is simply getting used to what youāre doing. You need to outsmart it! One super easy technique is simply to take a diet break for a week. I donāt mean diving into junk food again, but just donāt be too concerned about your portions and enjoy a treat here and there. Then jump back on your plan. This is what I did unintentionally, and it got the scale moving in the right direction again.
Find your inner athlete.
In October 2009 I started running which gave me a whole new outlook. I now saw myself as an athlete.
Never one to do things slowly (except lose weight!) I ran my first 5k in December 2009 and was hooked on running.
My biggest revelation was that we can all be athletes - itās a state of mind. Whether you are running half marathons (as I eventually did), or youāre doing chair yoga in your living room, we can all be active according to what is appropriate for our age, fitness level, health and abilities.
You donāt need to be on a team, or run races, or compete with anyone - other than yourself. Being an athlete is a powerful state of mind, and when I finally saw myself that way it was a huge turning point for me. That mindset affects everything you do, because you will want to be active, and you will want to fuel your body with wholesome foods so you can perform at your peak. (For more on finding your inner athlete, read this article.)
Down 75 pounds after 19 months.
By January 2010 I had lost 75 pounds and weighed 129 pounds. I was a size 6. I still had lots of belly fat and flabby thighs and upper arms. I jiggled when I ran, but as far as I was concerned it was a miracle. It was at this time that I started training for my first half marathon in April 2010.
Mind you, this was not effortless AT ALL.
I had added some trouble foods back into my diet and became a calorie counter. I told myself moderation was okay. And it was, so long as it didnāt trigger binge eating.
Jacquiās Tip: People ask me all the time how to fight food cravings. I wish I could say there was an easy way, but I struggle with cravings to this day. One (sad) fact is the more processed foods in your diet, the harder it is to resist the cravings. I hate this because I like occasional treats. Sometimes I can add them in but, when Iām feeling weak itās better to just say NO. The habit of saying no to yourself is like a muscle. Flex your willpower muscle and it will strengthen over time. You have to make hard decisions every day about what youāll put in your mouth. Resist the ice cream today - yay! Resist it every day this week and it gets easier and easier to say no.
Down 86 pounds! The end??
With my increased running, I started averaging 118-122 pounds. I was a size 2. Yes a 2!! I still had stubborn flabby areas, but the summer of 2010 was the first summer I felt comfortable wearing shorts and tank tops. By summer of 2010 I had run three half marathons and was training for my first full marathon. My blood work was completely normal. My body fat was approximately 20% which, according to some charts, is in the athleteās range. Yay!
Jacquiās Tip: Iām so sorry to tell you that there is no END. You donāt hit goal weight and live happily ever after. Arenāt I full of happy truths today? Maintaining my weight was (and still is) a daily struggle. Sometimes multiple times a day I will have to curb the urge to binge eat. But each struggle is also a learning experience and makes me a stronger person. When I mess up (which I do often), I forgive myself and move on. Iām convinced that I (and probably you) do the best we can at the time.
When life throws you a curveball…
Part of the reason I was able to maintain my new lower (118-122) weight was running. I ran lots of miles per week which made up for all sorts of dietary indiscretions. Honestly, some really bad habits started creeping back in, like sweets on a daily basis. I justified them because I was burning off the calories but it was a dangerous place to be. Especially when I had to stop running.
In May 2012 I had knee surgery and when I tried to return to running after a month, promptly hurt my other knee. Thus began a vicious cycle of injury. Long story short, I wasnāt able to return to running until spring 2014. Suddenly the pounds started packing on and the battle of the bulge heated up. Again.
Jacquiās Tip: Please, please donāt do what I did and focus on one form of exercise only. When I began running it became almost an addiction. It wasnāt the act of running I enjoyed, but I loved my running groups, running friends, and races. It was a huge part of my social life and, sadly, my identity. I wasnāt a fat girl, I was a runner - yay! When I was no longer able to run it almost killed me. This is no joke. I was extremely depressed for about two years after my surgery. If I saw you running in the streets, I would hate you on sight. This is not a good place to be emotionally.
After my surgery I had to turn to other forms of exercise to burn calories and keep me in shape. Thatās when I started collecting Beachbody workout programs. I could modify them to accommodate my bad knees, and they were fun. And, I was back to working out at home which I had always enjoyed.
When you backslide, itās time for a challenge.
During the spring of 2012 I started backsliding in a serious way. I was depressed that I couldnāt run and turned to food once again. Old habits really do die hard. Food was how I handled stress in the past so I automatically started eating.
Ten pounds later I knew I had to do something.
I felt out-of-control for the first time since beginning my weight loss journey. I saw a post on Facebook for someone running a Beachbody Challenge Group. I wasnāt sure exactly what that was, but I wanted in. I needed to up my game and take action fast. What I was doing wasnāt working. At that point I was so miserable I just wanted someone to tell me what to do. I needed a coach.
Jacquiās Tip: The critical piece of the puzzle that was missing from the very beginning was support. I didnāt tell anyone close to me that I was dieting because I had failed so many times in the past. For the first time I had a coach to help guide me, and the support of a group of people who were just like me - trying to be healthier. My challenge group gave me the motivation and inspiration to get back on track.
That challenge group turned things around and I wish I could say this time I lived happily ever after. But how boring would that be??
Truth is, I still struggle with food. Every day I am tempted to eat more than my body needs. Iām tempted to eat processed junk. I am tempted to turn to food when Iām stressed.
Sometimes I overcome those urges, but often I donāt. I am not “cured.” But Iām not sure I even like the word “cured.” Iām not an addict. I have control over what goes into my mouth. Every day I make a series of decisions. Some bring me closer to goal, and some move me away from my goal.
I constantly gain and lose that last ten (sometimes 15) pounds. Sometimes Iām quite thin, and other times Iām a normal weight. Thatās what youāll notice in some of these “after” pictures Iām sharing. There are really various stages of “after.”
Jacquiās Tip: I am embarrassed to say I havenāt practiced what Iām about to preach very well, but have a SCREAM WEIGHT. That is a number that, when you see it on the scale, means you will take immediate action (i.e., diet!) to get back down to your goal. 122 used to be my scream weight and, as of today, I weigh more than 122. Letās just say Iām perfectly imperfect!
What does a typical day of eating look like?
My diet is far from perfect. Ideally it would consist of only real, whole, unprocessed foods. But, thatās not exactly how it looks in real life.
My breakfast is usually a Quest Bar and coffee. Lunch is an Amyās meal, an apple and one square of dark (85%) chocolate. Or, I bring leftovers for lunch. Dinner is meat, fish or chicken, a veggie and a starch like sweet potato, white potato or rice. I always end my dinner with another square of dark chocolate. I typically workout after dinner, so Iāll drink my Shakeology mixed with almond milk, frozen banana or frozen berries as my snack.
Eating this way helps me maintain my weight loss. When Iām gaining weight itās because Iām doing more snacking or eating at night. I control myself for most of the day - evening is my danger zone.
Hereās how I prepare for a successful week:
Planning and preparation is KEY. Each week I spend a little time planning for the upcoming week. I put my workouts on the calendar. I decide exactly what those workouts will be.
I roughly plan my meals for the week and make a shopping list. I shop on the weekend and then prep some of my food, like precooking proteins, chopping veggies, washing fruit and, most importantly, cutting my chocolate bar into squares!
More tips to keep me on track:
1. I like to start my day reading something positive. Whether itās nutrition and fitness oriented or not, I fill my brain with positive messages first thing, before I open my email or facebook.
2. I track my food. I use MyFitnessPal to log my food every day and and Iāve been doing that for years.
3. I work out 5-6 days per week.
4. I hold myself accountable. One way is through this blog. Another way is with my Beachbody accountability groups. I became a Beachbody coach not only so I can help others lose weight, but for selfish reasons. As I guide my groups I need to practice what I preach! I am constantly in awe of and inspired by my challengers.
5. I set new goals for myself. Usually they are not weight related, but it might be something like training for a 10k race, aspiring to do a real pull-up, or upping the weights in one of my workouts.
6. I journal. Not necessarily daily, but I do journal often about my weight loss struggles. Sometimes “talking” out your problem on paper (or the computer) will give you a new perspective or help you solve your own problem.
7. I allow myself to be imperfect. Perfection is impossible. I try not to stress when I mess up. I forgive myself, learn from the experience, and move on.
8. I take responsibility for my decisions. I donāt blame my weight problem on my parents, spouse or children. I didnāt get fat because I had a stressful job or problems at home. I got fat because I ate too much. Period.
9. I strive to know myself. Journaling helps with this, but what I mean is that I donāt jump on the latest diet bandwagon. I donāt do well with restriction - it gives me the urge to binge. I include chocolate daily because two squares is only 100 calories, it has antioxidants (gotta justify!), and it makes me happy.
10. I plan, prepare, anticipate obstacles, and set rewards. How? I organize myself and track my progress with one of the printable planners Iāve designed. You can download a free planner HERE.
My parting words of wisdom…
If youāve read this far, you are officially my favorite reader EVER.
The most important message I can share with you is that YOU CAN DO THIS.
If I, a person who has failed countless times, can lose 80+ pounds and maintain that loss, then anyone can. I have no magical secret, special diet or pill. I just do the best I can each and every day. I follow the tips up above - imperfectly - and those are my golden rules for weight loss.
Decide youāre done being overweight.
Choose to take good care of yourself. Find a plan and follow it. There are plenty of resources on this blog. Donāt get sidetracked by trying to find the perfect diet plan or perfect exercise program and donāt put your hopes on miracle cures. You donāt need to be cured. You just need to be smart.
Eat a little less, eat more wholesome, nourishing foods, and move a little more.
Set small action goals and monitor your progress. Find an accountability buddy or join one of my challenge groups. Iāll help you because I understand the hell that is being overweight and I also have experienced just how wonderful it is to be thin. (And shopping for clothes is now fun!)
So that is my story, and I hope it inspires you. Now get off the computer and go write your own success story! And then share it with me. I canāt wait to read it.
See? The struggle never ends…
If you can relate to my story, please comment below. I seriously feel vulnerable here and I hope my discomfort is not in vain!
Missy says
This blog is beautiful! Thank you for sharing your story. Thank you for the transparency! I will read and reread this for inspiration and to remember we all struggle. The real test is how we choose to handle those slip ups!!! Iām so glad the cosmos brought me (from a rinky dink town in maine) to a beach body coach in Kansas!
Jacqui says
Missy,
You are so sweet! Itās hard to share how many times Iāve messed up (and continue to fail) but I know others have similar struggles and feel like theyāre the only one who canāt get it right the first time. Just want to show that someone else understands š
And Iām so glad we connected too!
Jacqui
MJDoesit says
MJDoesit says:
February 24, 2016 @ 8:30am
I am grateful for your story Jacqui and all that you are sharing to help others. I have been struggling for years…35 years to be exact…1st excuse was post baby fat…then sad fat pre divorce…then met husband #2…then I gained more weight…now it was my happy fat…then the huge shock…marriage #2 failed after only 4 years!!..15 single years of slowly gaining more and more weight and now I am carrying 35lbs of unhealthy fat…but my good news… I am happier than I have ever been…married to my best friend and loving life…but my best life would be to live the rest of my life healthy and fit and as long as possible with my wonderful husband and children and beautiful grandchildren! This weight loss effort seems harder than ever and I have thought maybe I am too old now…but your story has inspired me to not give up!! If you could lose 80lbs and keep it off surely I can lose 35lbs! Maybe I CAN do this…maybe by 60 I will be my healthiest self and an inspiration to my kids…my grandkids…and be around to see their children…I want to do this! I am going to do this!
Thank you Jacqui!
MJDoesit
Jacqui says
Iām glad my story helped a little, but thank you so much for sharing YOUR story. It always helps me to know Iām not alone, you know? And some of us struggle more than others but it sounds like you are in a really good place now and have the motivation to take off those 35 pounds. Weāre never too old to improve ourselves AND think of what a great inspiration you will be for your kids and grandkids! Youāll have to keep me updated on your progress!
Jacqui
Enga Batii says
this is inspiring especially with the failures along the way and the getting back again on routine, I love this.
because I have tried but once I failed it is the end and it takes years to restart it again.
MaryAnn says
Thank you for writing this. I feel like I could have written the beginning. Iām hoping to be able to write a similar ending. You are a wonderful inspiration.
Jacqui says
MaryAnn,
You are so welcome. And while Iām sorry you can identify with my beginning, I am sure you will write your own happy ending!
Jacqui
Heather says
You have already helped me so much in the last couple of weeks. My own weight got up to 180 and I am 5ā4″ also. I have also had the same wake up call with my doctor. But as much as my own decision to get healthy motivates me, you do as well.. Thanks for being my BB coach.
Jacqui says
Aaaawww, Heather, it has been my pleasure getting to know you! We all have to stick together, right? I feel like people who havenāt had weight issues donāt really understand how it is such a daily battle to lose weight and keep it off. But weāre doing our best. And you have been doing amazing - you are an inspiration to ME!
Jacqui
Liz says
Thank you for posting this! Hearing your story and that it can be done gives me hope that I can do it too!
Jacqui says
Liz, you are very welcome! And yes, you CAN do it too! Iām wishing you much success and feel free to check back in if you need a little motivation š
Jacqui
kelly says
Thank u for sharing ur story…i stumbled across it…and wow i cld hav written most…i lost my weight running whch was my life til injury and now recovering from surgery rite now…depressed and gaining weight and feeling lost wo my running. I also hav fallen bac to binge eating my sweets n cookies…i think now my running just compensated for my sweet eating. Thnk u for shari g. I wnt give up. Thx to u
Jacqui says
Kelly,
Donāt give up! So sorry youāre not able to run now. I know how hard it is when you really, really want to do something but your body wonāt cooperate. I think itās hard for non-runners to understand. Iām sending positive thoughts your way - I hope you heal soon and get back to doing what you love. In the meantime, do your best to stay positive š
Jacqui
Diana says
Jacqui, your story is amazing. I found myself moved to tears so many times while reading. I relate to you in so many ways. You are an inspiration and an amazing coach and friend. Best thing Alli did was pair me up with you!!
Lots of love and keep inspiring others! You may feel vulnerable after putting this out there but I see superwoman!
Jacqui says
Dee,
You are so sweet! Iām so glad we met each other through Alliās challenge. And know that you are an inspiration to me as well. Youāve heard me vent many times, and itās nice to have a sympathetic listening ear š
Jacqui
Erika says
Thanks Jacqui! I was really doing great for a while. However, I just finished going through a move and the eating has been out of control and the workouts have been minimal. It is so frustrating, but it is good to see that we are all human and we can get back on track as soon as we decide to! Thanks for being so open and honest. Looking forward to a challenge group!
Jacqui says
We are definitely all human, ha ha. I know itās frustrating, Erika, but you know what to do š Moving is stressful but hopefully now things will calm down for you and you can get back on track!
Jacqui
Jill says
I truly enjoyed reading your story. I think in the middle of our weight loss struggle, we sometimes look at “skinny” people and think “yeah, but itās easy for her”. I appreciate your honesty that it is never easy, even when you reach “skinny”. It is so hard to be patient on the weight loss journey, and your right, the journey never ends. It is a day to day struggle, but being healthy is completely worth it.
Jacqui says
Jill, I absolutely agree - being healthy is worth all the struggles!
Jacqui
Molly says
I couldnāt agree with you more!
Cheryl Williamson says
Hi Jacqui
I really enjoyed reading your story. I have never been over weight as such. At the moment I am 10 stone and for some people that will not be a lot but I am at my heaviest and have a stone to lose. My clothes are getting tighter so I either do something about it or I go up a dress size. What I am trying to say is for people who are a lot over weight you started somewhere and it escalated so if I continue the way I am then my weight will just grow so I need to be strong and nip it in the bud before it gets out of hand. My belly is growing by the day and its depressing and this is because my eating is spiraling out of control. So if I am not careful then I will end up in a worse place. I like to train at home but are bored of my old DVDs so have ordered some more from Beach Body to inspire me. I have a shoulder injury at the moment so that is limiting me of what I can do. I have downloaded the app for my fitness pal and for the first 4 days I did really well, then I went crazy again. After reading your experience I am inspired again. So I will start eating sensible again and then get focused on exercise once my DVD comes. I have set myself up for my next challenge. Thank you
Jacqui says
Cheryl,
Thank you so much for sharing your story. It sounds like you are a strong person - you have a plan to nip things in the bud before they get out of control. I think thatās why I TRIED to do my entire life - I was always dieting - but I couldnāt get any momentum. It just reminds me that for many of us the details might be different, but we all have a lot of the same struggles with food and weight. Good for you getting some new DVDās to make things fun and trying out MFP. Youāll have to check back in and share how youāre doing. Good luck to you!
Jacqui
Dianne says
Loved reading your story! I have three girls and we have a lot in common, especially the binge eating! Congratulations on your weight loss, you look fantastic!
Jacqui says
Dianne,
Thanks a lot! I think there are lots of us women with eating “issues” out there, which is unfortunate. But the cool thing is that weāre not alone and there are others who understand š Thank you for stopping by!
Jacqui
Jenn says
Ok so I am just beginning this and have never not been overweight. I like you am afraid to fail. I hope when I am through I can keep the weight off. Thanks for your story and how do I get to meet your celebrity crush. He is also mine š
Christine says
I just read your story, looked through your website and am thoroughly impressed! Iāve just become a BeachBody coach so I was searching for ideas - you have really pulled together an honest and inspiring way to help people. I wish you continued success!
Jacqui says
Christine,
Thank you for your sweet comments and best of luck with your Beachbody business! Itās an amazing company š
Jacqui
Amy says
I would really like to commend you on perseverance and determination. I too have gained a lot of weight after a failed back surgery. I joined the Y however I realized even though I am eating much better. I am not planning which makes me fall through the cracks. Then I get so angry and depressed. That I just donāt want to even try. Your story was very inspirational . Thank you I really need that today!
Jacqui says
Amy,
Iām glad my story helped. They key, for me, is just to keep trying - however imperfectly. Congrats that you are eating better because that is more than half the battle! Maybe if you just start planning your week with small steps it wonāt be so overwhelming. Like maybe this week plan 4 healthy dinners for the following week. When you hit that goal, then add another dinner. Or plan your snacks. Or, do what I do often, and just keep your house stocked with healthy foods and wing it based on the good wholesome foods in your cupboards and fridge.
If I, who has failed ZILLIONS OF TIMES, can do this, so can you!
Jacqui
seba says
now this is real, as I was reading your story a colleague of mine came to my desk to ask why do I keep falling back my response was definitely inspired by what I was currently reading, I just responded to say one step back is ten steps forward, no more excuses im writing my success story soon. and as for the half marathon I cant wait till I reach that milestone I currently weigh 69Kg that I overweight for a short girl like me, I have 11kg to loose, with your principles I can do this……
Jacqui says
Seba,
Yes you CAN do this! Donāt worry about the steps backward because youāll keep plugging away and the overall trend is moving forward toward your goals. Keep on writing your success story and be sure to share it with me!
Jacqui
Jesica says
Iām glad I came across this, Iām in that phase of ‘falling backā… and not happy about it! Trying to patient and compassionate, but itās been getting harder. I have about the same amount of weight to lose, so itās nice to see someone that could be me… makes it feel more achievable.
Most of my teen/adult life I was very active, but still always struggled with the extra 10-20 lb. But a binge diet for 2-3 weeks would take care of it (for a while). But then a variety of factors (changing from an active job to a desk job, buying a house, perimenopause, topped off by some depression) let to a HUGE jump, and suddenly I was 80 lb overwieight… no longer “pleasantly plumpā or ‘muscularā but clinically obese. And I feel helpless/hopeless about it!
I recently moved to Bend, OR, written up in some article as one of the top 10 places to “reboot your life”. We moved in May, and spend the summer riding bikes, floating the river, and working on our house and property. It was a rare phase where Iād actually “forget” to eat,. I also joined a fantastic gym and started going to all sorts of classes (I work from home, so this was also a very welcome social outlet). It wasnāt fast, but the weight loss (33 lb) and muscle firming became apparent within a few months. I felt GREAT!
But Iāve been struggling again, have been stress eating again… still doing 5-6 very intense classes a day, but not enough to keep up with the calories-in. Iāve put on 12 pounds, and it feels like Iāve gained all 33 back… so depressing!
One of my cycle instructors, whoās just a dynamo and super sweet gal, invited me to do her PiYo challenge… and as much as I cringe at the idea of a “diet” (Iāve done āem all, lose 10, gain 15), I am feeling like this push, the group involvement, the coach, will be coming at just the perfect time, and Iām so excited!
What I appreciate the most about your story is just the validation of the ups-and-downs… doesnāt mean you should give up… you just keep trying. I used to be a smoker, but I never quit trying to quit… and Iāve been a non-smoker for many years. I just need to keep that mind-set for my health and fitness.
Thanks for sharing your story, successes, and challenges! Iāll keep checking in.
Jesica says
5-6 classes a WEEK, not a day… š
Xinia says
Congratulations!! I respect you!
I , like many other are on the same boat you were… Your story is inspiring
I ‘ve tried almost everything… now I just started Piyo.. and hope I can follow up and succeed like you did.
Thank you for sharing!!
Jacqui says
Xinia,
I hope you love PiYo - itās a great workout and there is a simple meal plan and, if you stick it out, you WILL be successful! Itās not always easy, but it is possible. Good luck to you!
Jacqui
Ramya says
That was so nice of you Jaqui. I am really really inspired with your words. The way you do things etc.
Meg says
Can I lose weight following the 21 Day Fix without doing the workouts? I recently had a serious back injury and I am not allowed to exercise yet, but I want to start the weightloss process.
Jacqui says
Meg,
Absolutely you can lose weight without doing the workouts. The 21 Day Fix meal plan (or any meal plan) is what is going to give you most of your results. Itās just simple clean eating. Iāll be starting a new accountability group for people doing the Fix or other plans on May 26 - holler if youād like to join us!
Jacqui
Mary says
Wonderful story and a story that I need to hear right now. I am someone who has recently gained about back 70 of the 80lbs I worked so hard to get off. Iām going through a lot of self doubt feelings and feelings of failure! I keep trying to start over and but just feel so disappointed in myself.
Jacqui says
Hi Mary!
Donāt be disappointed and discouraged. If you lost 80 pounds you know what to do. Just make the decision that today you will take one or two small actions to get you going in the right direction. Donāt look at the big ‘ol journey ahead. Just worry about today.
For some of us (me included) it is a lifelong struggle. Donāt wait until you have all 80 pounds to lose again. Decide you are worth taking care of. Love yourself enough to be a healthier person. And holler if there is anything I can do to help š
Jacqui
Mary says
Wonderful story and a story that I need to hear right now. I am someone who has recently gained back 70 of the 80lbs I worked so hard to get off. Iām going through a lot of self doubt feelings and feelings of failure! I keep trying to start over and but just feel so disappointed in myself.
Tara says
Thank you for your words of encouragement, I am like you I am constant dieter, food is not my friend… I actually fear eating. I donāt really eat enough and when I do itās large quantities, Iām sure my body says here she goes again and keeps every calorie I give it. I workout 6 days a week. But to be honest I only workout to make myself feel better because I feel out of control with my eating. My husband and I are starting PIYO, together, when I calculate my Target weight I get scared, how can I lose weight eating 2000 calories a day? I have always been taught to eat 1000-1200 to lose weight. I am sooooo scared to eat 2000 calories and gain more weight. Any suggestions how to break that train of thought of not eating, skipping meals, and cutting calories down to 1000 and embrace and trusting the formula of 2000 calories.
P.S. I so love Jon Bon Jovi too!!!
Tara recently posted…Forget Motivation: Healthy Habits are the Key to Success
Jacqui says
Hi Tara!
Yay, another Bon Jovi lover! I hear they are working on a new album and there will be a tour next year. Crossing fingers….
I totally understand the fear of food and the fear of eating and, particularly, the fear of eating more than 1200 calories. Youāre right, weāve been brainwashed to believe we have to starve to lose weight. But if you calculate out your bodyās needs, most people need at LEAST 1200 calories just to survive. So if you lay in bed all day and watch Bon Jovi videos thatās enough. But if you get up and go to work and take care of a family and exercise and WHATEVER, you need to eat more. Otherwise your body starts conserving energy which means slowing down your metabolism AND breaking down your muscle to use it for fuel. Not good.
Soooooo, I would say trust the process even though itās scary. If you need baby steps, thatās OK too. So if the PiYo calculator recommends 2000 calories and that terrifies you, then maybe start with 1600 and see how you feel. If you feed your body proper food during the day then you wonāt need to binge at night or eat large quantities because youāve starved yourself the rest of the time. Does that make sense?
If you want some support, just holler. I have Facebook accountability groups full of people just like you (and your husband!) who are trying to live healthier lives. We support and encourage each other every day and the motivation and encouragement really helps.
Jacqui
Donna says
Thanks for sharing your story. I just found your website today and your are inspiring. Unfortunately I am your before story. 80 pounds to lose, uncomfortable, and unhappy with myself. I decided at the beginning of May (again) to get serious about working out and joined a “challenge” at a gym recommended by one of my friends. I went faithfully for 2 weeks only to have my knees hurting so much it was painful to do more than sit. After a week and a half of no exercise my knees are a bit better but still painful on stairs or when getting to standing. Kneeling is out of the question and a squat is still painful. I need to find something much easier on the body than a boot camp style work out. Food? Definitely my addiction. So seeing your story and knowing you might understand where I am at with the food and painful knee problems was a true blessing today. I donāt need to give up! I need to follow your positive example and start again (for the 100th time). Maybe this time I will find something I can stick with.
Jacqui says
Donna,
I DEFINITELY understand the painful knees (mine are throbbing at the moment, ha ha) and the food issues. But it sounds like you have absolutely the right attitude - find something that works for YOU. It doesnāt have to be super strenuous like a bootcamp workout (which are fun but hard on those of us with iffy knees), but find something you love to do. And just resolve to nourish yourself with delicious, wholesome food and enjoy every bite. I am absolutely serious when I say that if I, who failed a million times, can do it, then so can YOU! Definitely check back in with me and let me know how youāre doing. I canāt wait to hear about your success story. But every single day that you make good choices is a success, so donāt forget that š
Jacqui
Marion says
Your blog should be required reading for everyone who is trying to change bad habits with food and get healthy! Itās super encouraging to know I am not alone in my temptations and slips. …and that I am doing it right by not giving up! It can be frustrating to work out and burn calories but not see much progress, even when my brain is saying “slow is better”. Thanks for sharing! Time for me to start journaling!
Jacqui says
Marion,
Thank you! I think yours is one of the sweetest comments Iāve ever had. I totally hear you on the frustration of slow results, but your body will catch up with your good habits. I hope you do start journaling - youāll have to check back and let me know how youāre doing!
Jacqui
Kell Smurthwaite says
You are an inspiration! Like you, Iāve yo-yoād my entire adult life (to be honest, I, too, began that spiral in my teens, even though I wasnāt fat at all!). I have struggled with weight gain through two pregnancies, and now that my youngest son is almost 20 months old Iām seriously in get-back-to-health mode. Iād managed to shed almost 2 1/2 stones since the start of the year, and I still have at least another 4 stones Iād like to shed. I now go to a weekly Slimming World group (Iāve been there 7 weeks now), and go to the gym 1-2 times a week, swim once a week,. and go to a dance class and an aquafit class once a week each too. Iām now toying with the idea of taking up a martial art as well, and have just got myself an allotment, so Iāll be working hard growing my own fresh fruit and veg! š
Jacqui says
Good for you making the decision to become healthier! It sounds like you are super active and that will be an amazing example to your kids. Definitely try martial arts - so fun!
Jacqui
Megan Morgan says
Thank you for sharing your story! I loved the detail of you struggle as I also have yo-yoed a million times! I always was down to a muscular 150 and in the Army 6 years ago, got in my relationship comfort status and kept going up and down until at 180 found out I was pregnant went up to 246 lbs and with gestational diabetes, and have been slowly losing that weight for 18 months now here I am with a 20 month old and finally started the 21 day fix with my friend a couple of months ago and am now down from 204 to 185 and people noticing my weight loss is really helping! I love this “diet” and appreciate all of your printables!
Jacqui says
Megan,
Thank you for your kind words! It sounds like you are making great progress and Iām so happy that your friends are noticing your weight loss. You should be very proud for putting in the hard work because it sure isnāt easy! Iām so glad you took the time to write and I wish you the best!
Jacqui
GiGi says
Hi! I am reading you from Germany and can only say that I identify myself with you totally except for having gotten that “click” that I need to get serious. My goodness I think about this daily yet never start. It is frustrating to say the least. I donāt have access here to any American products so I have to deal with what my German grocers have to give. Still fresh clean food is universal. I will try my best.
Congratulations you look awesome. I also have boys (2).
Ps how in the world do you get to meet JBJ soooo many times Iād love to meet him once. Lucky girl you are!
Amber says
Your story is AMAZING and soooo INSPIRATIONAL! Iām only 17, I have a 9 month old little girl (so Iām always on my toes!) and Iām a HUGE fan of eating. I canāt seem to get enough!! Well that ends now!! Iām so happy I stumbled across your story! While my husband works every day of the week, I sit at home all day watching tv and eating! Itās ridiculous. I just ordered 21 day fix yesterday so I can say Iām finally getting on the right track!! Thank you so so much for sharing your weight loss and struggles !! Youāre a brave person for sharing this and you look absolutely GREAT!
Jacqui says
Thanks, Amber, you are so sweet!! I remember the days of being home with home with a baby and how busy and hectic that is, so I give you a lot of credit for ordering the 21 Day Fix. I think youāll really like it because the workouts are short (hello nap time!) and the food plan is so simple. Not easy - especially since youāre home all day surrounded by food - but itās a great way to eat. As your daughter gets older, sheāll see her mom eating all these amazing healthy foods and you will be such a wonderful role model for her. Wishing you the best of luck!
Jacqui
LeKenya says
Thank you so much for sharing your story. Itās exactly what I needed to see. I need to lose about 100 lbs and itās extremely encouraging to see someone who used to look like I look now have success. Congratulations on your journey and the maintenance. Youāll never know how much of a blessing it is for me. I had lost 50lbs and was on my way and had some family challenges and turned to food. Now Iām trying to lose that plus another 50! I like the small increment thought process. It feels easier to achieve. Blessing s to you Jacqui!!!!
Jacqui says
LeKenya,
Iām so glad my story was helpful to you because it was really tough to share it - especially the pictures. But, if I can do it anyone can - including you. It doesnāt matter that you lost 50 pounds before and gained it back. It did that so many times. Whatās important that you decide, today, that you WILL do this. It might take a long time and there probably will be lots of ups and downs. But do not give up. Youāre worth the effort.
Feel free to reach out if you need a little motivation, and have a wonderful day!
Jacqui
Molly says
This is crazy inspiring and I completely relate. Iām there in the struggle intensely right after having my 4th child. My 32 yrars of having type I diabetes needs the attn too. Thanks for sharing. Iām book markingthis blog.
Jacqui says
Hi Molly!
Sorry you can relate, ha ha! I hear you about the struggle and itās a daily battle for me too. I wish you much success in your journey and youāll have to stop back and keep me updated on your progress!
Jacqui
Shanon says
Hi Jacqui,
Congratulations on your success and thank you so much for posting your story. You are truly an inspiration and I am grateful to you for sharing your journey. I need to lose about 90 lbs. and have struggled with being overweight my whole life. Like you Iāve tried many diets/fads/latest and greatest and had some success but nothing that stuck. I have purchased the 21 Day Fix program and was able to do the workouts but found that my knees and back would always start hurting after day 4 or 5. Iāve been looking into PiYo just because of the no impact exercises. but I was concerned that I wouldnāt be able to do the workout because of my size. Thanks to your story I know I can do the workout and will be purchasing the PiYo program right after I send you this message!
Thank you again for giving all of us out here that resides in the unhealthy, inactive, and unhappy prison, motivation to break out and finally be free. You should be incredibly proud of yourself! š
Take care!
Shanon
mari says
This is so inspiring and exactly what I needed to read. Looks like you kept your thick and beautiful hair and left the thick body behind ! Great job!
Erin says
Thank you for sharing your story. There are so many great tips here for dealing with the struggles of food, mind, and fitness. I love how open and honest you are. I will definitely keep referring back to this on my especially tough days..
Jacqui says
Erin,
You are so welcome! It was very hard for me to share, but I figured there would be people out there - just like me - who would benefit from knowing theyāre not alone. Weāre all on this journey together š
Jacqui
Rees says
I am beyond inspired by your blog post. And yes, I read every word! I hope to have a similar post in a year (hopefully less) detailing my progress. Iām just starting, but I will refer to your blog as I take this journey. Thanks for the candor!
Jacqui says
Rees,
Well thank you! And it was sweet of you to read the whole (super long) post! If I can do this, then know that you can too and youāll have to let me know so I can read YOUR success story. Good luck on your journey, stay strong, and just holler if you need anything š
Jacqui
Stephanie says
Thank you for being brave enough to put a voice to the struggle. Itās refreshing to hear how youāve gone back and forth, and continue to work at it still. I can see my own story in yours. And that makes success plausible like I never realized it could be.
Jacqui says
Hi Stephanie!
I am definitely a work in progress and probably always will be. Iām glad you can relate a little, but hopefully more with the successes than the struggles. You can definitely become a healthier version of yourself. Good luck to you and please check back if I can help in any way š
Jacqui
Sabrina says
Itās really good to hear your honesty. Iām nervous about things due to medical conditions and medications. Your reminders to take things slowly, repeat weeks if you need to, and in this article that itās a journey not a sprint… I needed the reminder. Iām at my heaviest ever and docs say medications may make losing the weight difficult but I need to try. Thanks for being the nudge I needed to give this a shot.
Jacqui says
Sabrina, you are so welcome! I know it can be discouraging if you have medical issues or medication that makes the journey that much more difficult, but I promise the end result will be worth it. It may take you longer, and you may have to try harder, but remember that the goal is to become a healthier YOU. And you are worth the effort š
Check back and let me know how youāre doing. Iāll be cheering you on!
Jacqui
Michelle Scott Moreta says
Your story is very inspirational, Iām a woman who is about to turn 50, who has fought the battle of the bulged for years, losing most times… I must have lost over 200 pounds over the years. and have master the fine art of taking photos only above the neck line…. Reading this has given me hope and faith that I can try and succeed in losing and keeping the weight off… Thank you for sharing your amazing story.
Lisa says
So did you eliminate all carbs? Or do you still do rice, beans and potatoes?
Jacqui says
Hi Lisa! Heck no, I donāt eliminate carbs! I mainly eat them in the form of potatoes because they are filling, but I do corn tortillas, rice, sometimes gluten free bread and occasionally junk like pretzels. I try to get my protein, fruits & veggies in first, and then fill in with carbs. Iāve done low carb before but I feel better eating them. And I think it helps fuel my workouts better. Does this help?
Jacqui
jenn says
You have inspired me. Great insight!
Celyn says
Hi, very interesting. I totally relate; after my first diet, I began to y-yo, ending up @ a higher rebound weight ea. time. I donāt even like hearing/seeing the word diet any more.
At my highest weight, 276, in 2010, I had a stroke. Over two years, I got down to 200#. But, by 2013 I was over 260 again and still climbing. I tried Whole30 and in one month leveled off at 250 in 2014, between Thxgiving N Xmas. I stay around that number now but am determined to go down permanently. Your story is very encouraging to one such as I and I know youāre correct re not ever quitting or giving up-even after having suffered a catastrophic event.
The thing I find amazing is my Dr. has never once asked me about my weight, my eating habits or anything other than saying I looked a bit ‘plumpā during one visit (during the time I was regaining my lost weight). No suggestions on how to ‘un-plumpā myself (itās not funny but I can only laugh!) I liked the effortless weight loss on the W30 program, but itās hard to restrict myself from several classes of food necessary to profit from it.
Iām considering Cize and 21 Day Fix as Iāve seen the ads on TV; the one looks like so much fun, the other so practical and both work individually so together may be the vehicles I can follow down to my intended destination.
Thanks for the reality check and being so disquietingly honest. I truly know it wonāt ever be easy but I fully know itās damned well worth it to press on. As a great-grand, health is my first priority; still I find it pretty aggravating that my waist size is larger now than my hips were @ 18 (36-24-38).
Iād like to be around another 20 years to welcome my first great-great-grand too. š and be able to bend over, play and run (I remember how my grandson used to laugh when Iād just take off running away from him as a little boy 20 years or so ago).
Again, so encouraging. Thanks a lot.
Wendy says
I appreciate so much everything you said. Starting again for the billionth time a year and a half ago (more seriously than ever because I am working out for the first time ever and for no less than an hour and a half each time) I am so frustrated to have in total lost about 10lbs during that time you give me hope!! I restarted again a week ago with a better food plan. I unfortunately love food I am determined to do this. I pepper breakfast for every day yesterday and will be doing the weeks lunches this afternoon. I am my own worst enemy in my head and every other way I may not win that battle but am determined to get it to a reasonable level. Thanks for the testimony of your life and putting it all out there!!!!
Wendy says
I appreciate so much everything you said. Starting again for the billionth time a year and a half ago (more seriously than ever because I am working out for the first time ever and for no less than an hour and a half each time) I am so frustrated to have in total lost about 10lbs during that time you give me hope!! I restarted again a week ago with a better food plan. I unfortunately love food I am determined to do this. I prepared breakfast for every day yesterday and will be doing the weeks lunches this afternoon. I am my own worst enemy in my head and every other way I may not win that battle but am determined to get it to a reasonable level. Thanks for the testimony of your life and putting it all out there!!!!
Jacqui says
First of all how cool is it that you spell your name the same way I do! I am really struggling. My weight problem began after knee surgery. I have always been active. I taught aerobics for 10 years run a ton of 5ks and 10ks, two half marathons and one full marathon. I was determined to not let my knee surgery keep me from running forever. I recovered quickly with physical therapy and exercise. I had just begun to run again when I was diagnosed with stage 2 breast cancer. The worst blow was having to undergo chemo treatment. Although I walked everyday and could only tolerate the taste of a few foods, my weight escalated. I am now heavier than I have ever been including being pregnant with twins. I eat very healthy, and exercise everyday but canāt seem to lose the weight. Beating cancer is not enough for me. I am not content to be a fat cancer survivor. I have done P90x, P90x3, T25, walk/running, and now I am trying PiYo. Any advice would be great. My doctor just says to keep doing what I am doing but I am not content with that. To me that means keep on being fat.
Jacqui says
Hi Jacqui - also with the awesome spelling!
First of all, I love your attitude. I canāt even imagine how hard it must be to fight cancer - which is a huge battle on its own. So I truly admire your drive and focus.
That said, obviously listen to your doctor first and Iām just going to share a few thoughts. The most important thing is to eat for good health, rather than restrict yourself too much just to lose weight faster. Your body needs optimal nutrition to heal itself. I highly recommend the book “It Starts with Food” because it shows how the food you eat affects everything in your body - not just your weight. So be sure to eat well #1.
#2 is that PiYo doesnāt burn many calories. That doesnāt mean it is not effective, but I found that I personally had to do a little something on the side because I am very sedentary during the day. So maybe add in something easy like walking. You donāt want to stress your body with something like P90x plus PiYo, but I donāt think it would hurt to do a little something else, assuming you are sedentary. If youāre really active, then just ignore this.
So “keep doing what youāre doing” is not necessarily going to keep you overweight. Maybe it is just a matter of tweaking your food and your exercise. It doesnāt mean give up, and you have already proven you are not a quitter!
Iām not sure if this helps, but just know that Iām cheering for your success. Youāll have to keep me updated š
Jacqui
Amanda says
You are absolutely the best motivation! Thank you for this… Just three weeks ago I was diagnosed pre diabetic. A family history of diabetes and heart disease has me terrified. Iāve decided to take control. Your story makes me feel like i can do this. And man, do i need that encouragement!
Jacqui says
Aaaaawww, Amanda, thanks! I hope that you can use your diagnosis to turn your health around, like I was able to do. Just reading about diabetes terrified me - but in a good way. Maybe that will help you š But also there is lots of info out there that pre-diabetes can be reversed and that hope kept me going.
So decide you are going to do what you need to do for good health. And then just keep plugging along. As you read in my story, there were lots of ups and downs. There still are! I had to really push the re-start button after Christmas because I was letting too many bad habits creep back in.
Iām rooting for your success! I hope you keep in touch and let me know how you are doing.
Jacqui
Crystal says
I am starting PiYO innthe morning, Iām over 200 and St my heaviest since having my boys. I have yoyo dieted for so long, it comes and goes in stages of 30 pounds. Iām trying to call out of the depression and take control. Itās scary to start over again, but I ave to. I find hope when I read your story. Thank you for sharing and being an inspiration.
Jacqui says
Hi Crystal!
I hope PiYo is going well for you. Itās very scary starting over again after yo-yo dieting, but know that if you stick with it, youāll reach your goals. It wonāt happen overnight and, if youāre like me, there will be a lot of ups and downs on the road. But thatās part of the journey and the learning process. Youāll discover just how strong you are on the inside, while PiYo makes you strong on the outside!
Youāll have to keep me updated on your progress…
Jacqui
Iola says
Jacqui!
Thank you for sharing your inspiring story. I am glad i stumbled upon your blog. Itās refreshing to come across a tangible, real life experoence like yours. I began steadily gaining weight in grade school. After trying countless diets, magic shakes, personal trainers I finally gave up. Now that I am at a better more stable point in my life, i am tired of being fat and am trying to become a better version of myself. Youāre so inspiring. A breath of fresh air to those of us feeling winded by beginning this process. Thank you. I hope i too end up with a happy ending š
Tracy says
I love your story…so honest and real. Very much mimics my story.
I was always up and down “normal”, sometimes a bit more than normal, throughout my youth. I was never overly active but always involved in something. I was never what Iād call “skinny.” At best in my 20ās I was 125lbs and “okay” with that and I was also a casual runner (never did any officials runs though).
After marriage, I injured my back, The running stopped, the weight crept up. Iām 5ā1″ and at my heaviest (after baby #2) I was 192 lbs. I used EVERY excuse you can think of to justify my weight (babies, lack of time, “big-bones” (love that one), on medications that make me fat, hate the gym - you name it). I always said I was working on it - sometimes I was…with trainers too - but never produced any results. I was angry at everyone - even God! - because certainly “I” was not the problem.
When my marriage started to fall apart (thankfully it actually did not…but it was close!), I remember crying a lot an begging God to give me the answer and what came to me was simply that I had to stop making excuses and be accountable for my actions. Quite literally, I felt that I finally understood that only I was to blame for my condition and the ONLY way to fix it was to eat healthier and exercise (or at least move) EVERYDAY. And the final realization…I had to do it FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE!
Today I hover between 122-128. I would love to be 120, and I truly could be if I really worked at it, but Iām happy to be realistic with my lifestyle and now Iām confident and feeling good about myself. (128 is my “scream” weight). I also get asked all the time how I did it…I tell people I ate right and I exercised. I started out with Slim in 6…that got the ball rolling. Since then Iāve moved through TONS of Beachbody programs (currently doing Hammer & Chisel). I really do believe their stuff has been my saving grace. I love that I can get up in the morning, do my daily devotions and workout at home all before 7 am and then squeeze in some walking later on. It has become my lifestyle…and I will never go back!
Stretch says
Hi! I&;8217#ve been following your weblog for a while now and finally got the courage to go ahead and give you a shout out from Porter Texas! Just wanted to mention keep up the good work!
Jelena says
Thank you for having such a wonderful personality and for being beautiful person inside and out and the most important - thank you for sharing your story and inspire others! All the best!
Jacqui says
Jelena,
Well THANK YOU! Your kind words absolutely made my day. It was a tough story to share - and itās tough to be honest about my continuing struggles - but I know there are people out there who can relate. So thank you for being such a sweet person. You made me smile š
Jacqui
jennifer says
Any tips for those struggling with weight loss on anti-depressants?
Jacqui says
Hi Jennifer!
I know that some anti-depressants can cause weight gain, but I really donāt know much about it unfortunately. I would ask your doctor for advice, for sure. And the other thing is to do what I would recommend to anyone, and that is to try to eat a diet that is made up of whole, unprocessed foods, for the most part. So lean meats, fruits, veggies, healthy fats, nuts, seeds, etc. I know this isnāt much help, but a clean diet in general is the best way to go for weight loss, versus just counting calories but eating junk like chips, fast food and ice cream. Does that make sense?
Jacqui
Lyn says
Iām hoping I can write an ending like your story. I was skinny for such a long time but in the last 10 or so years my weight has been creeping up. I took up running in 2011 and I struggle with that too. Turns out I have a dysfunctional vocal cord that blocks my throat when I exercise. After two years and a lot of testing I was told that I only breathe at 60% of the capacity that I should, but because everything else works like it should the specialists do not want to attempt to fix my breathing while exercising problems. I have also done many 5kās, 10kās, half-marathons, one full marathon, and a bunch of other distances… however I usually have to walk most of it and it is very frustrating. I have also struggled with insomnia my whole life (the kind that has no cause which means there is also not a whole lot they can do to fix it), and being tired can cause a person to be hungrier than average. My sleep specialist tried to switch my sleep medication a few months back. Unfortunately one of the side effects was increased appetite and weight gain. I tried to eat like I should but I was constantly hungry to the point where I felt like I was going to pass out and so I had to eat. And I gained even more weight. Luckily my nutritionist was the one to figure out why I was gaining weight at such a rapid rate and now that Iām off of that medication I am almost back to a normal appetite. Now the challenge is to lose all the weight. Motivation is hard for me to find lately but Iām ready to try again after a many failed attempts. With the constant fatigue and trouble breathing while doing any exercise I really struggle to workout and the extra weight has only made that harder. I also stress eat which has also been happening a lot lately. And I wonāt get into just how picky of an eater I am and how much I hate to cook… it is terrible and I canāt eat most of the things that I should because they make me gag. I always feel like my body is working against me. Your story has given me a glimmer of hope and a spark of motivation to once again begin the journey to where I need to be. Thank you.
Jacqui Grimes says
Hi Lyn!
Girl, it sounds like we have a lot in common, in particular our bodies working against us sometimes! But even if exercise is a struggle, know that the bulk of your weight loss will come from your nutrition. And I ABSOLUTELY understand that that is the hardest area to control! I am a stress eater too, and I am embarrassed to admit that this summer I did quite a bit of backsliding - mostly due to stress. So know that you are not alone.
I guess for you and I it boils down to DECIDING we are going to become the healthiest versions of ourselves possible. And not accepting excuses - especially the ones we tell ourselves! Like being a picky eater or hating to cook. Iām not picky, but I hate spending hours in the kitchen. So that was one of my excuses for a long time. Check out this post… http://weightomaintain.com/free-spirits-guide-effortless-healthy-meal-planning/
And after you decide, and cut out those excuses, then just be kind and gentle with yourself as you are going through the process! If I can do it, then you can too! Donāt think of it as going on a diet, but just taking baby steps to a healthier you.
And if you think support might help, I lead Beachbody challenge groups every single month with other ladies much like you. š
Keep in touch… Iād love to hear how youāre doing!!
Jacqui